It's hard to write about your newborn child without resorting to Hallmark-esque cliches. Before having Felix I would always roll my eyes slightly when parents would eulogize about their children saying things like "it's just the greatest thing in the world," "its indescribable" or "it's a totally different kind of feeling, a totally different kind of love." Then what do I go and do on our first night out without Felix except bore everyone senseless at the dinner table about our wonderful, extraordinary, beautiful baby boy.
If you are a parent, or a mum in particular, I wonder if any of these things that I love about my son ring true:
The way that he snuggles into the warmth of my neck as he falls asleep wrapped around me
His exhausted panting after a long feed
Sleeping like a frozen statue with his arms sticking out at odd angles
His gummy smile that lights up his entire face when I sing "Three Blind Mice"
The way that he kicks up his legs for me when I change his nappy
If I had to pick one word to describe the first three months it would be this - AMAZED.
Amazed at this tiny creature who is so dependent and yet so remarkable. Amazed at the fact that somehow I seem to know what to do. Amazed that Francois and I managed to create something so lovely.